Friday, March 31, 2017

Gemini Moon Musings - What is Ego in a Chart ?

Some say the ego is represented by the Sun, in a chart, others say it's the Moon. But can we really simplify something so complex as the ego to this = that ?

Perhaps the ego is a bit more elusive. Perhaps any planet can be egoic, until such time as it evolves into it's higher nature. As a person grows and becomes more self-aware (with any luck), planets and aspects in their natal chart begin to take on a deeper meaning, it's no longer just a personality analysis. But the luminaries are still the main players.

Like a knight in shining armor, the ego protects our fragile, metamorphosing self, when we are young and going through rough times (or at least teenage times). Though it can and should never be entirely vanquished from our lives, at some point it has to step down, or at least to the side, so the authentic self can take the throne. The Knights of Tarot can be seen as ego archetypes. Ideally, they are simply 'of noble service'.

That vital spark in each of us, which is a part of the Sun, longs to become a Sun itself and to be as one with the eternal source of life. The Sun's placement in a natal chart shows who one is, here and now, and operates most effectively when one can be in the present.

Recently we were discussing Gemini Trump's badly wounded ego, on an FB thread. The mortal twin is in complete fear and denial of it's mortality.
Where is little Donald ? It's like he's his own changeling.  It's hard to watch how in pain he is, especially as he's taking everyone down into the void with him - maybe he is acting out the entire wounded ego of America. He has Regulus, the Lion's heart, on his ascendant. Imagine if he'd had a healthy ego.

The Sun may initially express as egocentric 'me me me', but the driving urge behind this is for the Sun to gradually develop into who we are simply meant to be in this lifetime. Some people have a much easier time than others at this, for various reasons. But when you look around - including in the mirror - you see a lot of struggle going on. Signs of an ego not wanting to take a back seat are: taking things personally, being defensive and not  able to handle criticism, narcissism, having to put others down in order to feel better about oneself, requiring validation, selfie addiction.... The Sun is after all, a star; the center of our solar system, with all the other players revolving around it. That sure sounds like some egos, but it also sounds like the heart of universal love.

Who hasn't referred to this quote by Marianne Williamson ?

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

The Moon is no less important, for it represents the soul's memory, plus all the reflections and emotions we ever took on, that helped to create our ego (esp. through the mother, and we are also the mother of our ego, as the Queen is creatrix to the Knight). Our Moon nature is directly related to our Sun nature, so a wounded, solar ego will also be reflected in the Moon. Silver, the Moon's metal, is very sensitive and gets tarnished easily from outer impurities. The Moon is absorbent, impressionable, cyclic... but not so inconstant as we may think. We are just used to defining her by the Sun's light.

When the Moon is in her dark phase, at one with the night, she is not reflecting anything. This is why we say the New Moon is the time for re-birthing, for fresh starts. As the Sun self longs to be one with life, so the Moon self longs to be one with death. That is, to be one with the natural cycles of time and change, which we all embody. There can be no rebirth without death. We all go back to the Great Mother for recycling. The Moon placement bears our soul memory and matriarchal lineage. A badly wounded ego reflected in the Moon might bring out all manner of demons.

There are many different opinions on the implications of a solar eclipse, especially in a birth chart. Well, think about it - this is a rare moment in time where the Moon is not only not reflecting the Sun's nature/light, but up-staging it, entirely. The person born on or close to such an event will have a very strong, lunar nature, indeed. They will have a Sun/Moon conjunction, of course (conjunct one of the lunar nodes). This can be a powerful, directed combo, or - if we are talking wounded ego - a hyper-sensitive person who can't see themselves or can't see beyond themselves. In either case, their Solar and Lunar natures are not separate.


Were you born on an eclipse ? (Do you have Sun and New Moon conjunct a node ?)
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